self harm

the link

never seen it done to this extreme

Hahahaha awesome

I was about to write "lol so you've never been to bmezine.com before?" but then I scrolled down some more. goddamn.

That's a little unnecessary...but something says she's very educated at what she's doing. She doesn't seem to have an amateur interest.

oriasnuclearvomit wrote:

That's a little unnecessary...but something says she's very educated at what she's doing. She doesn't seem to have an amateur interest.

the stiching looks self done as it looks very un even... when i;ve been stitched up it was never like that
i think she stitches herself up and this is how she gets round getting put into psychiatric help, but what do i know

just some of the slices are really deep and would require internal stitching... the fact shesslicing that deep and not slicing through her arteries would indicate she's educated and knows where what is , or she's been very lucky.

if you cut that deep and you really did wanna die you'd be dead i am sure....

Bleh. I see no gain in it.

Yeah on the one hand, this is not a person with those little painless nicks from razor blades, but on the other, I sort of wonder where these came from and the little messages in blood sort of seem to not fit with the seriousness of the actual cuts, I associate that sort of thing with people who do little tiny cuts and aren't very serious about it, not so much with people who carve themselves up like a christmas ham. Like does she post this shit on blogs or something?

no idea, but she ha sposted them and she has become some sort of a celebrity now hasnt she as it is to that extent. I dont think the pots are a cry of help, to me the fact that mesage is there and its psted online and taking pictures and then being posted publicly are more of an attention seeking thing.

or that's ow it comes across to me. I've slashed myself sure, but i generally dont go about showing the world, I have posted in private blogs say and shared with friends, i did it moreso when i was younger and i hated myself having that shit on display so took it all down and only share with some ppl,in generl i wear long sleeves as i feel cutting is something personal

In a way that was fucking sick and repulsive but at the same time you have to give someone credit for having that much control over their body to do that. And the survival talent. Kinda crazy.

according to the message thread that followed the set of pictures someone tracked her down and was chatting to her on skype, and she says that she can not feel pain. and thereby is able to slice like this, and is therefore not cutting for pain or depression

Wow, what is that medical condition called where you feel no pain. That is what she would be talking about I assume.

no idea what the name is

It can happen with nerve damage and stuff too, like when people are struck by lightning sometimes it can fuck things up. People that are born that way tend to not survive long as children or else tend to get injured a lot anyway, since they can't feel the pain to make them avoid such situations. Still, crazy shit, that.

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and is therefore not cutting for pain or depression

but then why does she write those emo-kid-type messages on the wall and post photos of them? I could understand this if she could feel it, but the fact that it doesn't sort of mystifies me. Maybe she just thinks it looks cool or something.

I was amazed at all the people who were jsut upset in the thread over there because she was giving herself scars. so what? why do people feel the need to butt into what other people are doing?

nureintier wrote:

? why do people feel the need to butt into what other people are doing?

I second that question.

Yeah, thats some deep shit there.

I had a great picture taken when I was having my implants put in my arm. The incision was lifted and you could see down my arm where the layers of skin had been seperated.

parasyte wrote:

according to the message thread that followed the set of pictures someone tracked her down and was chatting to her on skype, and she says that she can not feel pain. and thereby is able to slice like this, and is therefore not cutting for pain or depression

She claims to feel no pain but thats 100% impossible as we are all humans born with a nervous system, otherwise we can't survive.

What i think she means is she doesn't care to feel pain, and embraces it.

Myself, claims to basically not feel much physical pain whatsoever, just mental.

SFM wrote:

parasyte wrote:

according to the message thread that followed the set of pictures someone tracked her down and was chatting to her on skype, and she says that she can not feel pain. and thereby is able to slice like this, and is therefore not cutting for pain or depression

She claims to feel no pain but thats 100% impossible as we are all humans born with a nervous system, otherwise we can't survive.

What i think she means is she doesn't care to feel pain, and embraces it.

Myself, claims to basically not feel much physical pain whatsoever, just mental.

There is actually a medical condition which makes someone unable to feel pain... it has to do with a rare genetic mutation if i remember correctly.

skeletonplaguerex wrote:

There is actually a medical condition which makes someone unable to feel pain... it has to do with a rare genetic mutation if i remember correctly.

That, or nerve damage can cause it. Still, I wonder what the whole point of her posting these on the internet was (I understand that she didn't post them on that board, but she must've taken them with some intent of sharing them). I mean, I would like to know more about the story behind it is all.

it would be interesting to know why you would go to that extent, it almost seems like a form of exhibitionism or something, in which case i am sure there is a better outlet than the internet... like a sideshow... or therapy

yeah, that's what i mean, i just wish i knew what her motivation was, not to mention what is up with the "no pain" thing, whether it's psychological or a medical condition or nerve damage or whatever, and where the pics came from (like, where they were originally posted before they got there).

also, i have spent way too much time on that messageboard. damn you, parasyte...

well i have pondered this a lot since i first took a look at that... one thing is for certain, she may look suicidal but clearly she isnt, otherwise she would be fucking dead. the shit is sick and fucked up, but it does seem she has an idea of what she is doing. what is the motivation to completely destroy your body... could be anything from religion to anger, but without speaking to this person all we can do is speculate

Honestly, I can relate to her. I've had a inverted cross burned into my forhead and no, not Glen Benton worship I did it for satan.

Also, I have quite a few burn or scars from cutting.

These days tho, I haven't cut up for awhile tho.

Cutting yourself up is stupid, degrading, emo, and pathetic.
I have no idea of how one would do such a thing; there are a million ways to deal with personal issues, and certainly not with an teenage gimmick.

No cut...
Suicide!!!!

jb wrote:

Cutting yourself up is stupid, degrading, emo, and pathetic.
I have no idea of how one would do such a thing; there are a million ways to deal with personal issues, and certainly not with an teenage gimmick.

how is cutting oneself a teenage gimmick. elaborate your statement.

i dont think the cutting bit is a teenage gimmick, i think going around posting pictures ("look how bad i am") is stupid. fuck knows i;ve done it and i feel embarassed that i posted pix about to people. it should be something personal, and sure, could be shared with close ones as can be with all things personal. it's the one thing i struggle with about Dead. his vox were so great and so forth, but the cutting himself on stage i find.... disappointing.

And emo? cutting isnt necesarily an emo thing, you have to go deeper and see why people may cut. I cut in the past, sure, initially i did it cause i needed an outlet, other times i was just fucking angry and punishing myself, but people may not understand that.

on other occasions i've gashed myself open to show someone how little my own well being means compared to them. i'd let this body be beaten and des troyed for some people. and a blade through my flesh was an easy example to show this. ill destroy myself for those who matter... i wouldnt say that's emo hey.

but i doubt you'd ever be able understand this